ep: this raid

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ep -this raid (tüm parçalar peşpeşe)

nothing is certain

sweet demise 

(daha karanlık 2025 versiyonu burada.)

this raid

the joy the madness and the fear

söz ve müzik bana ait ("the joy"da sözler cioran'ın!), ben söylüyorum, düzenlemeleri kendim yaptım, sonrasında yapay zeka (suno) kullandım - bir tür stüdyo müzisyen(ler)i gibi çalışmış oldu. tam içime sinmiş değil, "demo" gibi görmeye daha yakınım.

90'larda yazdığım ama yeni kaydetme fırsatı bulduğum bir parça "this raid".  youtube linki ve sözler aşağıda.

the pain behind my eyes is coming from the skies

i have second thoughts, don’t know how long my soul will last

this raid upon my world is eating up the life i’ve got

stored in a secret land, out of reach and far away.

proved to be so close to you, and i couldn’t hide away

burst out laughing without a care, the joke is on me.

 

some things always change, you cannot see what you left behind

and you shed your life, like a snake

the pain behind my eyes tells me how much more i can

go on riding winds before i break apart

 

couldn’t find a better time to cut my left ear for you

burst out laughing without a care, the joke is on me.

 

taking it in my stride, i used to go on and on

but i feel the change creeping inside me like a worm

the hatred goes away, all the questions disappear

the silence still remains, growing like a tree inside

the blazing sky has taken all my funny sides but left me this

i burst out laughing like i’m mad, the joke is on me.

c 1992 cem akas

Diğer parçaların sözleriyse şöyle:

Nothing Is Certain

 Nothing is certain, nothing is real

The cat in the cell only reveals

That it’s alive

When you look equations collapse

Before you can shake yourself free

From the illusions everywhere

That cloud is a whale, that star you saw died

Before God was born.

 

Nothing is certain, nothing is real.

 

Millions of futures, only one past

Raises the question, “What happens if?”

Or is it a game

To look at the picture through an up-moving slant

To think time is passing

While nothing changes, nobody moves

It’s just misconceptions, and love doesn’t count.

Who does the counting?

 

Nothing is certain, nothing is real.

Nothing is certain.

Nothing is real.

c 1989 cem akas 

Sweet Demise

Thought it was safe

I was in the clear

No reason to lie

Or have any fear

I heard a sound

And looked around

To find myself

Surrounded by

The darkest cloud.

 

The trees were falling

All over the place

Birds were flying

Stuck in a race

The road was winding

Bells were chiming

Lights went up

We came to a stop

And there it was.

 

The planet moaned

And shook the ground

Words were spoken

Faults were found

So many doubts

To cast about

You couldn’t believe

Such a sham

But such a relief.

 

The paint came off

The whole thing crumbled

My breath was gone

And then I stumbled

That was all

I had to fall

I closed my eyes

We heard the call

Our sweet demise.

c 2025 cem akas

The Joy, The Maddness and the Fear (Cioran)